Last night :(

Today (Monday 13th September) was my last REAL day here in Seattle...OMG! Feels weird to say it..I can't believe that it's already been over a year!
I spend the whole day trying to pack all my stuff but it's so hard! And I didn't have a scale so I couldn't be sure if my bags were too heavy or not. But the Stendahl's were coming later this evening and they had promised to bring one.
The rest of the day I just tried to make sure that I got everything that was mine. I went through the closet downstairs, the bathroom, my room...well, the whole house. I guess I wanted to say goodbye at the same time which felt really weird!!
I realized that I couldn't bring everything back home so I started to be a bit logical and hard, everything that was a bit broken I threw away. This way I lost a couple of shoes and kilos ;)
My room is so empty now when I took everything down from the walls. All my teenage posters, the t-shirts, the map. Now there's just empty, white walls. The closet is empty and the drawer. It seems bigger now and when U talk there is a echo in the room ;)
I couldn't pack everything today cause I need my bathroom stuff tomorrow so when I was "done", I just relaxed in front of the TV until the family got home and I played with the kids.
Yesterday in the car, Sofia asked me what my favourite food was and I answered pasta bolognese. So for our last dinner together, they made it for me. So sweet :) Before we started to eat they gave me a present, they couldn't wait ;) OMG!! They gave me a Ipod touch, the newest generation!! Are they crazy?! And the best part is that they've put on some pictures from the year and also the first two Twilight movies sinced they know I'm such a big Twilight fan ;) Hahahah..they are the best! I was so happy, didn't know what to say.
Later, after dinner, the Stendahl's came and we ate a cake that Lotta had bought for this special, and sad, evening.
I also got a gift from the Stendahl's, they gave me a toilet- and a make-up bag from the brand Vera Bradley. I've been looking at bags from them through my whole year and been wanting one so badly but never bought one so it's perfect! It's a pink, orange one with big flowers and I just love it!
I gave them a small, wooden angel from a beautiful brand, that we also have here in Sweden, and it stood for "Thank You" which I think fit very well to the Stendahl's cause they also contributed to that my year here was perfect and I'm gonna miss them so much! It was hard saying goodbye to them, the kids are so sweet!! But they are also moving back to Sweden so I'll see them again.
It was kind of late and the kids were on their way to bed, but I had some gifts for the family too. Sofia got a music box with Tinkerbell that we saw together one day at Hallmark and she wanted that so bad. She told me to tell Lotta about it so that she could give it to her, but I never did ;) She was so happy and now she can play it everytime she miss me!
Filip, who is a Monopoly lover as U know bye now ;), got a new Monopoly with Nintendo theme. Instead of streets U buy Nintendo characters like Zelda, Mario etc It seemed really cool and he was so happy. Too bad I won't have time to play with him :( He have to bring it when they move to Sweden.
For the whole family, I made a photo book with pictures from the whole year. I had written some small stuff and also a thanks and what this year had been for me. I was really happy with the book and now they have a memory that they always can look back at and remember me ;)
Now the hard part started. The kids got really sad. Sofia started to cry and was really upset, Filip isn't that hysterical but U could tell that he also was sad. I laid down next to Sofia, in her bed, and talked with the kids until they fell asleep. I told them that we are gonna meet again, and they know that but it's gonna be hard for them anyway. It's not gonna be the same. I didn't think it would be that hard for me to leave, since I know we'll meet again, but tonight it really hurt.
The Stendahl's had forgotten the scale, of course ;) But Lotta went to a neighbour and borrowed one...pfew! Wouldn't have been fun to take a chance at the airport tomorrow ;)
I had to wrestle some more with my bags before I was under the weigh limit and could go to bed, for the last time in my room!! A weird feeling!

Miss U all!
Love Sandra